BEFORE I get into how sweet, funny, thoughtful and talented this cat is, I gotta put some things into perspective.
When do you draw the line, and when do you blend everyone into the background as “typical”??? It’s like…for over a year, I had my heart set aside for ONE person…EVERYONE came second to him, cause he was seemingly perfect…and continued to show and prove how untypical he was. As much as I cared about him, I never thought I was in love with him, or even uttered the “L” word to him. At the same time tho, outside of close friends and family, I was unable to “love”anyone else either. I made sure never to over commit myself, cause I knew that should the opportunity arise, I’d drop any and everything for dude. When HE did get around to wanting to be with me, distance and all, I was more than ready to push EVERYTHING aside. And I was HAPPY…I don’t think I’ve ever been more secure than when I was dating him–but nothing lasts forever, and he turned out to be one of the sorriest excuses for a man EVER. And yet…it took for another non-typical WONDERFUL person to help me see past the hurt and wasted time…and I’m here to tell you, I didn’t fall in love this time around…I got shoved. 
But, like I said, nothing lasts forever, and if you know me, then you know what became of that.
What I need to know is…what’s the difference between the average joe hurting someone, and someone you love doing the same thing? Are they not the same? (whether it be male or female) What is it about that person you love that gives them license to act a damn donkey, and have you STILL willing to wipe a slate clean? Or even if you don’t wipe it clean….you WANT to. WHY??? Why do we let some get away with malice, and others we don’t? Isn’t malice, malice, malice, malice??? I’m sittin here wondering how E can let a nigga hit on her, how I woulda’ got back with my hs sweetheart in a heartbeat, how my step mom and dad are still together…how I sit back and blow off shots at “What I always wanted” because I don’t wanna be “convenient”, and even though your world might not revolve around a certain person, you STILL find yourself feeling like nothing you do without them is ever right. That’s like Mo not knowing what to do after J, cause nobody else feels right. *Hmm* the hell is that about??? The world is just one big Lonely circle following…
Oh well. Jay is sweet, funny, thoughtful and talented and HANDSOME…HA-haaaaaaaa…and he STILL can’t get a break with me…I’m movin’ in slow-mo like a hurd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter. G’nite!
