Aww man. So…I’ve been mia again cause…I’ve been kept busy with work, (we’re still picking up call volume) My God children (Spent Easter with them and had a draining yet good time) and with each of my other endeavors all while trying to stay in the loop with UK. This whole stolen aircard thing is a bit pricey/annoying…*grrrr*
So…I’ll go in order from driest to juiciest. : )
For starters…I’ve been doin the “roommate” thing for almost 2 months now, and it was okay for a while, but…I’m ready to have my space back. I’m ready for my utilities to go down, and to get my carpet cleaned and a washer and dryer put in. She doesn’t pay anything…which is fine, cause I let her stay with me to get on her feet…but now I’m seeing I may have made things worse. First and foremost, I’ll say she’s my friend, I love her to death, and despite the following issues, those statements remain true. We work the same job/shift, yet our work ethics differ; she doesn’t save her money, even though her only real responsibility is her phone bill. She’s always out clubbing, or smoking…then going through some emotional or financial crisis. I try to offer her advice, but I think it’s a matter of her being young, and not having to be held accountable for anything. The more issues she has, the more I feel like Mom when I talk to her…except nothing gets through to her cause within hours, she’s back to planning what she’ll wear that night…Either way, she has til the middle of May at the very latest to get herself together and out because I feel like anything past that and we’ll end up not being friends. (Not that we’re on that path, but…with time I will have bitten my tongue til it became sharp and forked.)
Next, I’ve been putting off talking to my Mom…I hadn’t really spoken to her since Valerie’s funeral cause I felt she turned a sad event into something ugly…I felt the things that were coming out of her mouth were off base, and that even if there was a time for them, my BEST friend’s death wasn’t that time. I feel like, Val’s death was a reminder that tomorrow isn’t promised, and life is precious. With that being said, why use it as a vehicle to push your daughter away? Particularly when you’re not close to that daughter in the first place?! *Sighs* It was frustrating to say the least, and while we opened the can this past Saturday, we’ve yet to get to the bottom of it. This past month, I’ve found that some days I didn’t call her because I was having a good day, and didn’t want it to go downhill, and when I was having a bad day, I didn’t want it to get worse. That sounds ugly, but that’s where we stood. I will try to bring about peace soon, but right now I’m overwhelmed with work (my schedule stilllllll sucks) the roommate sitch and UK’s feature in GLO’s show next week…
Speaking of Glo…anybody who knows me knows what I think of them, and their affiliates (ceptin’ for Wreck cause he’s my Damey…even though I nevvvvvver see him…sadface). Don’t get me wrong, they’re cool dudes in their own right, but business-wise, my focus is on UK and not over involvement with other companies or organizations that aren’t instrumental in our progress. (Ooooh, you like how I kept it clean!) Not to mention the fact that the Ex rolls with them and though I don’t harbor any hard feelings for him…we aren’t talking (at my request). I’m tempted to say it’s for the better…not sure how things are on his end (They seem fine to me), but I’m cool. I don’t watch him live his life, and vice versa. I’ll always love him…and like he says, we may still come full circle some day but, right now I’m enjoying my peace. Enjoying is an understatement by the way…I can’t explain it but…
Still friends with the other Ant…lol. He’s still silly as all get-out…still fun as I dunno what…but we’ve been busier lately and it’s harder to catch up with each other. *Shrugs* it’s cool…few weeks ago we went to Denny’s and I thought I’d DIE from laughter…maybe if I pen him down on one of my upcoming off days we’ll go again, cause I could use some fresh air and hard laughs.
Lastly…in the past month and a half, I’ve had somewhat of a pen pal, and the more I talked to him, the more I realized we’re like twins…we think alike, share a lot of the same experiences, feelings and opinions on life. I realized other things too, but…it’s not somethin’ I plan on exploring here on this blog cause for one, I’ve got a lot on my plate, and while this blog serves as an outlet for me to dump stuff from it, this is one thing I’m gonna keep on. *soft smile* Can’t just go skippin’ and hummin’ around this blog all willy nilly…but it’s a good look. Until we meet again, this is Uma signing off…;-)
