So, we’ve established that you get what you deserve, and if you think you deserve better, you need to make changes to reflect that. This is a repeating theme around these parts. But as I was riding home from an annual dinner with coworkers tonight, I decided that I’m okay with some things in my life not being okay. Hard to explain, but there’s a welcome chaos. A type of dysfunction I can’t seem to do without. It’s kind of like my life is my studio area of my apartment. Art boxes, paints, sewing machine, random stickers, dress forms, fabric, buttons, wood burners, skateboards…everything is everywhere…it’s not tidy like I like it, but I know where everything is.
Like. I’m putting up with some bullshit, because the alternative is missing the bullshit and forgetting that I’m above it. Which really means I’m not above it, because I willingly accept it. I went from crying listening to a favorite song, to calmly thinking, “It’s not worth being upset, because at the end of the day, you won’t change a thing. Normally that thought alone would upset me. But today it cleared my mind…like, one less thing to worry about. I’ll know when enough’s enough I suppose. I can admit, I’m comfortable. Hand out blank canvases to people as they walk into your home. By the time they’ve left you should have house warming gifts to hang.
An unfortunate relatable reality…. #GottaLoveHonestHearts #NoOnesAlone